i guess the first "confession" should be that i am not, in fact, a hikkikomori. i am a stupid 18 year old larper who, like everyone else, is trying to grip on to any identity she can get her grubby little hands on. its like how femcels are only similar to incels in their thought process - despite popular belief, you dont have to be celibate to be a femcel.
so why didnt i just call myself a femcel? because hikki sounds better.
in the least cringe way possible, i dont think im LiKe tHE oTheR GiRLs. its not because i look down on them, id love to be like other girls. what makes me different is that i feel a genuine disconnect from everyone else around me. i spent years thinking i was a trans man, so now i dont feel accepted by the female species, but i never felt accepted by men either. im just sort of... floating. not in the middle, but somewhere off in the distance, always observing.